Thursday, April 27, 2006
simple simple.
i have decided to make it a point to blog at least once in two days.
even if its a single word.
WHY U ASK.?
simple reason.
i bloghop everyday.
of course, i have my choice of favourite bloggers.
and so, almost everyday, i innocently click my favourites button at the top of my ie window and pick at random anyone of THE five favourite blogs (of rather NORMAL people) and wait in bursting anticipation for the bloooody page to load.
and when the page FINALLY does load, either of two things happen.
1. i get a teeny bit disappointed for the simple reason that the person doesnt update. i went there in hopes of reading. but in the end, nothing gained. well, maybe the tagboard can be an exception. (some move like crazy ah can.?).
and for that matter, i end up reading the person's archives or click his/her links.
(interesting to note that some people are related by chains that are never thought possible. if u get what i mean, good for u. if not, BUAT BODOH SUUAAHH.)
2. i go "siak ahh, FINALLY update.." or "yay yay, ader bender nak bacer.." translated, "yay yay got things to read.."
as childish or immature as it sounds, its what really happens. i'm happy that my favourite bloggers update bcos i have something to read. (gd blogs are like the daily TNP to me.) its like a replenish-ment and dosages of basic information, ideas, reality and whatever nots.
of course the people who are on the honour roll have successfully impressed me (eh, not very easy okay) with simple yet engaging INGRISH *winks at zj* and wonderful weaving of rather basic plots. and believe me, they dont plan what to write.
it (all the necessary materials for a gorgeous blog post) just comes out naturally from the tip of their fingers, transfered through the continous-pressing-of-buttons-with-short-pauses-to-think-in-betweens-process called typing, and the letters pose prettily on your monitor screen to form an array of gorgeous sentences for u to bloody well read.
BEAUTY i call it.
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hahaah, okay, i shall cut the crap.
MY POINT IS..
u shudnt disappoint ur readers.
u want to read other people's blog, sometimes u pester them to update.
but u urself dont do the same thing.
its something like a viscious cycle thing.
it wldnt be too nice if one day some were to come and say.. "sial lahh u. u ask me to update but u never update. what sial.!!"(say this in THE mat accent. hahahaa.)
and thus the underlying rationale for the decision.
if u come across this entry one day, u may realise that this entry may have been written at an all too personal level.
this is just what I think. u obviously dont have to agree.
this is written to make sense of a rather random statement.
so, u get it.?
mwahahahaa. *evil grin*
2:40 am
Tuesday, April 25, 2006
school.
SCHOOL has been cool.
food, class, people and all..
lecturers, i didnt expect them to be what they are lahh.
take rajan for example.
on the first glance, he's like a deserately hungry predator, all ready to gobble u down in a split second.
however, as u get to know him all better, he's like this great phenomenon that strikes lectures and tutorial classes.
his intellectual sense i mean..
his opinions and perspectives are complexed yet comprehensible.
u know, its like 'oohh, i never thot of that before' but its perfectly logical.
as he further proves his point, cant help but find urself agreeing with his views.
and he doesnt do that by LYING. (yes, i'm talking to u hafiz. but then again, no one is even reading this blog. yet.. hahahaa.)
classes are coloured with much humorous yet inspiring stories, which is then applied to what we're supposed to learn that day.
(however, there's always this teeny bad habit of me sleeping in classes. hahaa, not bcos of the lecturer though. =D )
he tells jokes like no one's business lah.
sometimes, u cant help but have this discreet thought deep in ur mind that he may be racist against his own race. hahahaa.
then again, it goes to show that rajan is an open-minded man.
how cool is that.!!
and this is only rajan i'm talking about.
there are other greats like
ms kwa,
ms peters,
mr loh..
and many more.
dont worry, i'll do justice to u people.
but not just yet.
got so many things to do, yet so little time.
till then, take care y'all.
(errmm. again, i forgot. no one is reading all these yet. ahahhaa. damn.)
6:17 pm
Wednesday, April 19, 2006
letter to you.
A letter came in today. For me.
And guess where its from.?
Yes, yes.!!
SPI UK 336 CAP
4002 Basel
Switzerland
Finally, it came in. Hehh.
Its enclosed with a cheque too.
SGD $187.67.
*beams*
Just my lucky day. =)
8:07 pm
Thursday, April 06, 2006
Just hard to say.
It's hard to say how I feel today
For years gone by, and I cried..
Yes, I cant describe how I’m feeling right now. Its just this heavy feeling.. U know, its like the after-a-rather-un-enjoyable-conversation-with-someone-who-means-a-lot-to-u kind of shitty emotion.
Had a little chat with 'It'.
I was feeling a little emo after. And so.. I cried. I couldn’t help it. The tears just came falling. My dear pillow’s drenched with my bittersweet tears of hatred, disappointment, frustration, confusion and every other littlest emotion left in the world..
And then I talking to God with my little fragile heart.
I was praying for God to make me stronger than what I was then.
I was praying for God to make all those faint whispering voices to go away.
I was praying for God to make me feel lighter than what I was then.
I was praying for God to make me approach it all with robust courage.
And then, undoubtfully, I felt better..
Thanks to u ‘It’, I’ve learnt the meaning of “When u think of God, God will think of u too.”
Thank u.
2:06 am
